Thursday, December 28, 2006

Mirror of the day


Shakti Gawain talks about mirrors in our lives in "Living in the Light" - situations that we live in, events that happen, people in our lives - are all a mirror of our inner "state". When we change our focus "inside" then our "outside" conditions will change also.
It's so easy to get caught up in a negative cycle when unwanted events occur or significant people in our lives aren't quite dealing with life as positively as we would hope for them. We feel that all this outside chaos is completely out of our control and we are victims of it all. We feel helpless, and the negative thinking pump gets going rapidly. Once that "pump" gains momentum it can be hard to stop it, let alone slow it down!
I personally have been dealing with "people not thinking positively" issues. I am fully aware that I cannot control what other people say, do or think. I know that I cannot take other people's actions personally. It's not about me. Yet, I noticed that several of the most important people in my life have been going through a very rough emotional period and I want to help, I want to heal them, relieve them of their pain. I try and try but often without any positive result - after all, I can offer help, but if the person is not ready to receive it, it's out of my hands... So I trust that when they are ready - they will come to me, if they choose to, and that's OK.
So is doesn't sound so bad, right? I don't take it personally, I do the good deed and offer my help, I send them loving thoughts... what IS my problem?
What if all these things are a reflection of what's inside? I have always believed that every person in my life is there to show me a side of myself. Perhaps these people are all dealing with similar emotional issues because I haven't resolved my own?
So I looked "inside" and saw... I saw pain I never dared to deal with, depressing thoughts that have lingered since childhood and always resurfaced at unexpected times, and the recurring "down" feeling.
Perhaps if I attempt to nurture the wounded "inside" I just might have a direct effect on the "outside". I'm looking forward to seeing how it all unfolds... I will keep you posted...

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